England Women Rugby League

England Women's training camp has been taking place in Leeds ahead of the start of the Women's Rugby League World Cup at Headingley. I went to film with them at one of their last training sessions before it kicks off.

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Doncaster Airport

The final flight took off from Doncaster-Sheffield last night. The 10:55pm departure to Katowice in Poland, operated by Wizz Air, was be the last to take to the skies for the airport before it closes. Last month, owner Peel Group said operations would wind down at the airport from the end of this month as it was not financially viable. 

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Terri Harper

I had a really enjoyable evening filming with Doncaster boxer Terri Harper who's been announced as an ambassador for the Club Doncaster Foundation, the charity linked to Donny Rovers. The WBA and IBO super welterweight champion was coaching youngsters before a Rovers match.

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Climate Conference

I spent the day at King Edward VII School in Sheffield last week to report on a national conference on climate change where 1,500 students from across the country had gathered. Our lunch live at the Schools Climate Assembly was cancelled just before going on air as it coincided with then PM Liz Truss resigning so the Look North lunch bulletin was scrapped. With cameraman Ed, we were able to do this report for our main programme....

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Para Table Tennis

Thirteen British para table tennis athletes, who're based at the English Institute of Sport in Sheffield, will be heading to Spain next month to compete in the World Championships which only come around every four years. They'll be confident of bringing back a haul of medals as the squad is made up of some of the best para table tennis players in the world.

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BBC 100 Share Your Story

This week I've been part of a BBC team speaking at schools back in Oxfordshire for a project called 'Share Your Story' where we explained the value of telling stories.

I told students the story of my mental health breakdown.

Here it is in audio form:

markansell · Mark Ansell Share Your Story

And here is my script if you prefer reading it:

"I’ve got a story to tell you about how an experience in my life made me a better journalist and really a better person. How challenges in life can actually help you to believe in yourself!

I had a good childhood. Parents who cared, three brothers who I got on well with. A happy life, until it wasn’t a happy life. A Levels and school complete, I was travelling around Mexico on my own aged 18. Suddenly late one night in my hotel room I felt really, really, strange, my throat was getting smaller and smaller. I couldn’t breathe. A panicked confusion took over my body. I was convinced I was having a heart attack and was going to die. I was petrified, panicking. Desperate to be back home. I was rushed to hospital and remember being in an air-conditioned room where a middle-aged doctor in a white shirt did several tests on me. After being assessed I was given drugs to make me relax called tranquillisers. I couldn’t understand why I was being given these drugs but through broken Spanish I worked out the doctor thought I was suffering with a mental and not a physical problem. A panic attack, not a heart attack.

I flew home early to get better, but instead I got a lot, lot worse. Sitting on a bench with my Mum outside the GP practice in Thame I came to a realisation - I was in such a dark place that I admitted to her that I could understand why people take their own lives.  I was at the start of a mental health breakdown. I couldn’t escape the feelings of desperation, of deep anxiety and yet just weeks earlier I’d finished my A Levels and life at school in my final year couldn’t have been more fulfilling as Head Boy and running a mobile disco business, DJing at loads of parties, alongside my studies. Life, from the outside, looked so good and yet inside, I was in turmoil.

I remember turning up to DJ at a pub in Thame for friend’s 18th birthday feeling petrified. I was feeling a deep panic, my stomach was churning and my throat was getting smaller and smaller again. Another panic attack. I didn’t think I’d be able to go on stage to DJ but thankfully I felt the fear and did it anyway. And when I was up there mixing between the tracks and entertaining the crowd on the mic, I felt free, the mental turmoil lifted – if only for a few hours while I was performing. 

Despite my feelings of desperation, I did whatever I could to get better. Counselling, antidepressants, living healthily. The doctor said don’t go to university in Sheffield that year, too much to cope with. I was determined to go, so I did. University was a struggle. I felt very on edge. One of the only ways I could cope was by calling my Mum every single day on the phone and taking the train home to see her every weekend.

And yet from the outside no one would know I was suffering with deep anxiety. I went to all my lectures, got top grades for my essays, DJ’d at student club nights, got involved in student politics and made good friends. When I was feeling particularly brave I plucked up the courage to tell my best friend Matt what felt like my secret, that I suffered with mental health problems. He, and other close friends I confided in, were shocked. They didn’t think someone who was, in their eyes, so confident and successful could have a mental health problem. Although many of them couldn’t understand, their friendship, really helped me get through university. Being with my friends on a night out was like an escape, I could forget my fears and enjoy myself. I’m still close friends with Matt and many of those other friends now, 19 years on!

As the months and years went by, and after a lot of counselling and support from friends and family, I became stronger and more resilient. In my second year at uni my brother Andrew invited me to go to Finland on holiday. I was petrified about being away from my comfort zone. The last time I’d been abroad – in Mexico – I’d had a panic attack and thought I was going to die. I went to Finland anyway and even enjoyed it. Gradually, I broke free from the dark cloud which followed me everywhere.

I came to realise that I could cope with life. I finished my degree and started my career in radio and TV News.

My breakdown changed me forever but for the better. I can really empathise with others especially people who are going through a tough time. This makes me better at interviewing people. I really listen and really try to put myself in their shoes.

This was my life changing experience and I learnt an incredible amount about myself. On the rare occasions when I start to feel the dark cloud following me, I am able to use the techniques I have developed that work for me so I can overcome the feelings of anxiety. These include talking to loved ones, doing exercise, meditating and praying.

My breakdown was really my breakthrough.

So whatever the challenges are in your life – now or in the future – I want you to know that they can help you believe in yourself."

Food Recycling

More than eight thousand households in Sheffield are having their waste food collected weekly. It's part of a trial to prepare the city for when weekly food waste collections become compulsory. Food rubbish collections are better for the environment than it going to the incinerator as it's turned into bio-fuel and nutrient-rich fertiliser.

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Football Award

A football fanatic from South Yorkshire has been named the Football Association's 'Nationwide Mutual Respect Award' winner for her commitment to football for three decades and for her inclusion of players with disabilities. Emily Rowles from Rotherham devotes her life to football, volunteering as a coach for children and women at Kiveton Park FC as well as playing for the club. 

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