Saturday 31 December 2022
CQC Sheffield Maternity Services
Tuesday 27 December 2022
Shipping Containers
Saturday 24 December 2022
Quality Street Food Bank
Wednesday 21 December 2022
Drunk Driver Jailed
Sunday 18 December 2022
Barrow Hill Roundhouse live
Friday 9 December 2022
Stannington No Gas BBC Breakfast Lives
Sunday 4 December 2022
Dan Bradbury golf
Sunday 27 November 2022
Qatar World Cup
Wednesday 23 November 2022
School Talk
Sunday 20 November 2022
Food Poverty
Saturday 12 November 2022
Donation Day Relay
Tuesday 8 November 2022
Alan Bocking
Sunday 6 November 2022
Sport live at speedway
Monday 31 October 2022
England Women Rugby League
Sunday 30 October 2022
Doncaster Airport
Saturday 29 October 2022
Terri Harper
Wednesday 26 October 2022
Climate Conference
Sunday 23 October 2022
Para Table Tennis
Thursday 13 October 2022
BBC 100 Share Your Story
I told students the story of my mental health breakdown.
Here it is in audio form:
And here is my script if you prefer reading it:
"I’ve got a story to tell you about how an experience in my life made me a better journalist and really a better person. How challenges in life can actually help you to believe in yourself!
I had a good childhood. Parents who cared, three brothers who I got on well with. A happy life, until it wasn’t a happy life. A Levels and school complete, I was travelling around Mexico on my own aged 18. Suddenly late one night in my hotel room I felt really, really, strange, my throat was getting smaller and smaller. I couldn’t breathe. A panicked confusion took over my body. I was convinced I was having a heart attack and was going to die. I was petrified, panicking. Desperate to be back home. I was rushed to hospital and remember being in an air-conditioned room where a middle-aged doctor in a white shirt did several tests on me. After being assessed I was given drugs to make me relax called tranquillisers. I couldn’t understand why I was being given these drugs but through broken Spanish I worked out the doctor thought I was suffering with a mental and not a physical problem. A panic attack, not a heart attack.
I flew home early to get better, but instead I got a lot, lot worse. Sitting on a bench with my Mum outside the GP practice in Thame I came to a realisation - I was in such a dark place that I admitted to her that I could understand why people take their own lives. I was at the start of a mental health breakdown. I couldn’t escape the feelings of desperation, of deep anxiety and yet just weeks earlier I’d finished my A Levels and life at school in my final year couldn’t have been more fulfilling as Head Boy and running a mobile disco business, DJing at loads of parties, alongside my studies. Life, from the outside, looked so good and yet inside, I was in turmoil.
I remember turning up to DJ at a pub in Thame for friend’s 18th birthday feeling petrified. I was feeling a deep panic, my stomach was churning and my throat was getting smaller and smaller again. Another panic attack. I didn’t think I’d be able to go on stage to DJ but thankfully I felt the fear and did it anyway. And when I was up there mixing between the tracks and entertaining the crowd on the mic, I felt free, the mental turmoil lifted – if only for a few hours while I was performing.
Despite my feelings of desperation, I did whatever I could to get better. Counselling, antidepressants, living healthily. The doctor said don’t go to university in Sheffield that year, too much to cope with. I was determined to go, so I did. University was a struggle. I felt very on edge. One of the only ways I could cope was by calling my Mum every single day on the phone and taking the train home to see her every weekend.
And yet from the outside no one would know I was suffering with deep anxiety. I went to all my lectures, got top grades for my essays, DJ’d at student club nights, got involved in student politics and made good friends. When I was feeling particularly brave I plucked up the courage to tell my best friend Matt what felt like my secret, that I suffered with mental health problems. He, and other close friends I confided in, were shocked. They didn’t think someone who was, in their eyes, so confident and successful could have a mental health problem. Although many of them couldn’t understand, their friendship, really helped me get through university. Being with my friends on a night out was like an escape, I could forget my fears and enjoy myself. I’m still close friends with Matt and many of those other friends now, 19 years on!
As the months and years went by, and after a lot of counselling and support from friends and family, I became stronger and more resilient. In my second year at uni my brother Andrew invited me to go to Finland on holiday. I was petrified about being away from my comfort zone. The last time I’d been abroad – in Mexico – I’d had a panic attack and thought I was going to die. I went to Finland anyway and even enjoyed it. Gradually, I broke free from the dark cloud which followed me everywhere.
I came to realise that I could cope with life. I finished my degree and started my career in radio and TV News.
My breakdown changed me forever but for the better. I can really empathise with others especially people who are going through a tough time. This makes me better at interviewing people. I really listen and really try to put myself in their shoes.
This was my life changing experience and I learnt an incredible amount about myself. On the rare occasions when I start to feel the dark cloud following me, I am able to use the techniques I have developed that work for me so I can overcome the feelings of anxiety. These include talking to loved ones, doing exercise, meditating and praying.
My breakdown was really my breakthrough.
So whatever the challenges are in your life – now or in the future – I want you to know that they can help you believe in yourself."
Sunday 9 October 2022
Food Recycling
Sunday 2 October 2022
Football Award
Sunday 25 September 2022
Cancer Recovery
Wednesday 21 September 2022
Queen - York School
Sunday 18 September 2022
Princes Trust
Sunday 4 September 2022
Leeds Festival
Sunday 28 August 2022
School Uniforms
Tuesday 23 August 2022
Wildlife Weather
Saturday 30 July 2022
Women's Euros Semi-Final
Sunday 24 July 2022
Gay Conversion Therapy
Wednesday 20 July 2022
Women's Euros Live
Sunday 17 July 2022
Thursday 14 July 2022
Commonwealth Games Baton Relay
Monday 11 July 2022
Women's Euros pkg & live
Thursday 7 July 2022
Free School Meals
Sunday 3 July 2022
Disability Fashion
Wednesday 29 June 2022
Women's Euros
Sunday 26 June 2022
Matt Fitzpatrick
Sunday 19 June 2022
Pawnbrokers
Sunday 12 June 2022
Hallam Chase
Sunday 5 June 2022
Dialysis at Home
Sunday 29 May 2022
Knife Crime
Sunday 22 May 2022
Walk 4 Health
Sunday 15 May 2022
Running & Filming Leeds Half Marathon
Wednesday 4 May 2022
Yorkshire at Headingley
Sunday 1 May 2022
Women's Snooker
Wednesday 27 April 2022
David Oluwale plaque stolen
Sunday 24 April 2022
Wheelchair Taxi
I was pleased to be able to report on an important, original story in Sheffield last week about a wheelchair user who says he's furious that some taxi drivers are refusing to take him on journeys. Professor Duncan Cameron says he's regularly turned away by black cab drivers even though it's against the law. He's calling on Sheffield City Council to take licences away from drivers who fail to pick up wheelchair users like him. I also took photos for the story which was featured on the BBC News website article.
Sunday 17 April 2022
Sheffield Snooker Pros
Wednesday 13 April 2022
Imran Ahmad Khan Guilty
Wednesday 6 April 2022
Rotherham United Wembley
Sunday 3 April 2022
Ottis Gibson Yorkshire Cricket
Sunday 27 March 2022
Knife Crime Live
Wednesday 16 March 2022
Stroke
Sunday 13 March 2022
Racism
Sunday 6 March 2022
Ukraine Donations
Wednesday 2 March 2022
Mark Hughes
Sunday 27 February 2022
Riddlesden Flooding Landslide
This week I reported on flooding in Yorkshire. Six houses had to be evacuated after a landslide caused by flood waters at Riddlesden in Keighley. Parts of their gardens have fallen into the River Aire.